Unpredictable - (part 2)

I consider myself a risk-taker. Spontaneous. In spite of the fact that I was at the same Starbucks I always go to...for the second time that weekend...having passed at least 6 others on the way there.

So I did what anybody in my situation would do.
I waited for her to undo it herself. I waited as if my mere presence and the fact that I had gotten up to stand in front of her would somehow trigger her fine motor skills.

She just stared, shifting in her seat and disturbing the thick air then surrounding us both. I tried not to breathe.
I knew the moment of truth had come. I had to commit to the task, to this woman, in the face of [relative] danger.

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I remembered the conversation I'd had with my boyfriend on the way back from our day trip to SeaWorld the day before.
He'd said something about not being sure about the institution of marriage; something about not knowing how it would turn out.

So I told him.
"You don't even have to worry about it because I wont marry you!"

The words echoed in the car, in my head, expanding and heavy.
He said, "You might as well add 'even if you asked' to that."
I'd purposefully left that part out.
"I'm not the bad guy here", he shrugged.

"I didn't say you were. I just said I wouldn't marry you." I pointed at passing cars. "I wouldn't marry that guy either... or that guy...or him."
The unwittingly spared drivers whizzed by, probably on their way home to or away from irrational partners.

There was no such escape for my boyfriend. He was stuck with me, the woman who had just preemptively turned down his proposal.
I realized that this was probably what he'd meant about not knowing what would happen next. I can be pretty unpredictable.
Love is like that.
Love is like hovering over a strange woman at Starbucks, especially one who has just asked you to help her take something off. It's risky...for both parties really.

I could have been the crazy one, prone to random head-patting, lap-sitting or stabbing. But I'm not. Not really.
Although I might have responded to the woman by loudly refusing to marry her, and then turning to point at random passers-by, refusing each one of them marriage.
Clearly, this was well within the range of possibility. It's a good thing she didn't know that.

I unhooked the clasp of her necklace. My fingers grazed a fold under her neck and nothing significant happened. She was just a woman, a little off, but not a raving lunatic.

I went back to my chair to finish my phone call and read (and to watch other people read). A few minutes later, a young African woman came out of Starbucks, clutching her over-priced coffee. She, too, was on the phone.
Out of the corner of my eye, I witnessed her being beckoned over by Necklace Woman, who had been busying herself trying on other necklaces and bracelets pulled out of a wheeled carry-on suitcase by her feet.

I couldn't really hear what they were saying above the two men fervently smoking and arguing in Arabic at the next table. But I watched African Chick's eyebrows draw together as Necklace Woman gestured widely, pointing down the street, her eyes wide and jowls bouncing. She finished talking and the corners of her mouth sagged.
African Chick hesitated then said something to the person on the phone. I imagine it was something like "Hold on. This woman's about to stab me." Then she pressed the phone to her chest.

African Chick led Necklace Woman over to her car, opened the back door and hoisted the carry-on inside. Necklace Woman waddled around to the front passenger side and struggled to squeeze herself into the narrow space between the door and the adjacent car.
African Chick resumed her phone call, presumably to have a witness should she later be found head-patted to death in her car.

I laughed to myself. Bet she had no idea that would happen, I thought.
As the two pulled off in the car, I caught African Chick's eye and smiled, wishing her all the luck and unpredictability in the world.

Unpredictable - (part 1)

"Excuse me miss. Can you undo this?"

For a second, I imagined that the voice belonged to one of the Spartan warriors from 300. He was referring, of course, to his leather shield strap. The buckle had inconveniently [for him] slipped around to the small of his back. A bronzed back, rippled and glistening. I'd be happy to oblige him.

But the voice was a little too high, though a bit gravelly, too plaintive. Definitely not sexy.

It belonged to a rather large black woman in her mid-to-late 50's, dressed in a floral crepe skirt and top. The kind of pattern you'd expect to see as wallpaper in the early 80s.
She was dark-skinned; lighter than Aunt Jemima, but darker than, say...Oprah.
Her hair, un-permed, stood in a coarse, chunky 'fro, blackish and scattered with patches of a color I call "dirty squirrel"...a failed attempt at gray coverage.

We were at a Barnes and Noble Starbucks. Outside.
I was on the phone with my cousin, Dexter, detailing the events of my birthday weekend. The woman sat at the un-umbrella'd table (brave, given the heat), riffling through a clear plastic purse whose contents included a crumpled Wal-mart sack, some pens, receipts, unwrapped sandwich cremes and a wide-toothed comb (clearly unused).

Slip-on sandals clamped like man-made leather traps around her doughy feet, both of which were covered with flakes of dead or dying skin and dusted from shin to toe with a thick layer of ash.

I'd seen her when I first sat down, muttering to herself in the way that homeless people and writers usually do.
And now she was talking to me.
My hesitation to acknowledge her was born of two things.

• Fear
• Selfishness

1. What if I walked over there and she seized the opportunity to grab me by the wrists and pull me down onto her lap? She'd pat my head and call me by the name of some long-lost loved one or soap star. What if she stabbed me?

2. I came to Starbucks to read, to be seen reading and thought an intellectual, and to eavesdrop on the conversations of others (who had obviously come to be heard).
By muttering to herself and appearing to be crazy, this woman had made herself useless in my pursuit of these goals.

I had not come to undo the trappings of ambiguously homeless people.

I would have ignored her, but it was too late because I was already looking at her.

"Excuse me?"

I made my voice polite, yet firm. It said, "I'm a nice person, but don't try anything crazy".
She pointed to her neck.
"Can you help me with this?"
She was wearing a two-strand, beaded necklace. It did not match her outfit.
I lowered the phone from my ear, pressing it to my chest, which supposedly keeps the person on the other line from hearing what you say.
The woman's rheumy eyes searched my face.
"Here, undo this."

I didn't want to touch her and it wasn't just because of the waves of noxious fumes rising from her chair like summer heat dancing above the pavement.
Hers was a smell that my brain classified as "hot garbage", "fermented sweat", "poor lady" and "Damn".

But that wasn't it. It was more about the fact that I could not predict what would happen next.
Any number of outcomes were possible.

• Lap-sitting
• Head-patting
• Repeated stabbing
• "Thank you"
• "F**k you"
• or nothing.